SEKUNTUM MEMOAR

Mau sedikit cerita. Jadi, beberapa hari terakhir ini, lagi banyak hal yang sedang aku lakukan dan rencanakan. Mulai dari ngerjain project intern disambi kerja, belajar perkodingan untuk persiapan seleksi salah satu pelatihan yang wow banget, lalu ngerjain technical test untuk seleksi intern di tech agency. Nah, prioritasku saat ini adalah bikin desain untuk seleksi intern walaupun dengan insentive yang nggak seberapa itu, tapi aku tetep ngerjain karena ini deadlinenya yang paling deket. Nah,, tapi kok dari kemarin tuh aku dapet ujian. Jadi, hari Minggu sebetulnya aku mau ke perpustakaan Cikini mau belajar, tapi dikasih ujian sama Allah yaitu HP ku jatuh dan LCD nya rusak. Jadi hari itu aku ke tempat service, nggak jadi ke perpus. Akhirnya aku belajar di kos kos an malem, terus aku buka email dan dapet kabar lanjutan seleksi intern yang aku bilang tadi. Aku ngerjain form nya tuh malem, dan setelah isi form itu aku dapet case untuk technical test yang deadlinenya 2 hari. Nah, hari ini ud...

Nggak kerasa udah tahun 2025 dan udah memasuki pertengahan Maret. Saat aku nulis ini, aku sambil dengerin suara hujan lewat Spotify, hahaa. Entah kenapa, seneng aja gitu kalo ada suara hujan, jadi berasa adem. Bulan ini udah masuk bulan ke-9 sejak pertama aku masuk kerja. Bener-bener nggak kerasa ya, udah mau satu tahun aja. Gimana? ada hal baru? kalau ditanya kayak gitu,, jawabannya tentu "ya". Aku banyak belajar hal baru lewat emosi yang baru aku temui di saat kerja. Selama 9 bulan kerja, aku belajar tentang pentingnya batas yang jelas antara personal dan profesional. Saat ada masalah di kantor, contohnya kesalahan aku dalam nyelesaiin tugas, aku harus mengakui kalau aku salah dan minta maaf secukupnya. Setelah itu yaudah move on, karena hidup terus berjalan. Lebih enak kalau dibuat list gitu yaa, hehe. Jadi gini kira-kira hal-hal yang aku pelajari selama 8-9 bulan terakhir: Pasang boundary antara urusan pribadi dan kantor Jangan sembarangan curhat tentang apapun ke orang k...

October 17th, 2024 Little bit late from my birthday, but I want to keep the memory that I've ever had in every year I become more older. So, that I can track my personality growth in the future.  Three days ago, I just turn 24. Yet, still discovering what I want to do in my rest of life. But, this year is different from the last year. Yes, I got my first job in a telecommunication company at Jakarta. I am happy because at least I have my own salary and not being a burden for my dad. But, I got a new question after I got a job and start live as a "real" adult. In the previous year, I kept asking myself about who am I? Still learning about my personality. But, this year is different. I ask to myself, "Am I wrong for following this path?, Is my decision right for my life?" Few things that I questioned myself are my decision for choose this company and field as my first job. The second thing is, I actually bought a bootcamp for UI/UX career, but actually I also alre...

Am I be able to live the life that I really want? I am not sure what would going on in the future. Lately, I just saw a lot of celebrities that really inspiring. May be it is sound cringe for someone that hate Korean entertainment industry. But, never mind. I just write what I thought about their career journey.  First, actor Byeon Woo Seok. He is well known as an actor after his role in the movie called 20th Century Girl. It was not really booming at that time, but he started his journey as a big star is started from that movie. Now, in 2024 he really hit the top of his career as an actor for his role as Ryu Sunjae, the male lead in K-drama called Lovely Runner. This role has very big impact for him. Almost all of K-drama lovers fall in love with him, including me. But, let's focus on his career journey instead. He started his career as a model in 20 What I wanted to say is, he is very determined, patience, and never give up. 100 times he being rejected in auditions.  Second ...

You know what? Actually I identified myself as a silly, temperamental, emotional, childish, patience, and cuddly person at the same time. I become different person in every situation and places, also depend on with who I spending my time. But not always. It also depend on my personal emotions and feeling that day. Confusing, right? Ha ha. My personality changes in every situations. What most people don’t know about me, even my closest friend is the fact that actually I turn into a silly person when I am spending my time at home with my family. I can fill the house with my jokes and humor wich is didn’t come out when I am with my friend or other people outside. I am super happy when my jokes works in front of people and can make them laugh. But it is just work in front of my family. Other than that, my family (parent and siblings) never judged me. I just acted like a fool at home in a funny way. I just want to make them happy and laugh beside our struggle in life. I have never been afra...

Hari ini, usiaku genap menjadi 23 tahun. Kok hidup semakin ruwet aja ya. Di tengah-tengah skripsi-an, masalah hidup malah muncul lagi. Nggak cuma itu, tapi pertarungan sama batin sendiri juga nggak selesai-selesai. Mulai ujian hidup yang tambah berat, ngerasa diri ini emang ditakdirkan buat ngurusin orang lain dalam artian ngerawat orang lain, mikirin hidup orang lain yang sebenernya emang keluarga sendiri, tapi ada momen di mana ngerasa capek banget hidup kayak begini selama bertahun-tahun. Terus ada faktor dari internal diriku sendiri. Mulai dari self comparison, overthinking, insecure, terus akhirnya ngerasa stress sendiri. Tambah usia jadi tambah ujian dan bebannya. Yah, walaupun begitu, goals hidupku masih banyak. Masih banyak yang pengen aku lakuin.  Hari ini juga, aku bersyukur Allah mendekatkan aku sama orang-orang baik. Orang-orang yang sama-sama menganggap teman dan sahabat. Walaupun mungkin suatu saat nanti mereka bakal punya hidup masing-masing, tapi yang paling pent...